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mortemscintilla: ∅ There ain't nothing in this world for free (Hei - Contemplative)

[personal profile] mortemscintilla 2013-11-23 05:05 am (UTC)(link)
[ As the cold water hits Korra, her reaction is predictable. Unflinching, Hei grabs her and holds her in place under the icy spray with him. ]

Relax. [ A beat, then, a little disdainfully, ] I thought you were from the South Pole.

[ He won't admit it, but he did this on purpose. Right after the orgasm, there's always that undifferentiated emptiness, that hollow, sordid sensation. He'd felt it encroaching even as he'd pounded her. He could succumb to it now; sink into himself and then leave her alone to feel bad. Like all the other times. But he doesn't want to -- which, in its own way, is even scarier. At least the cold splatter takes his mind off it. Centers him in the now. ]

[ Holding Korra against him, he waits until both their bodies adjust to the temperature, lungs no longer cramping. Then he reaches for the shower-ledge and squeezes a glob of shampoo into his hand. Lathering her hair up, fingers digging with vigorous force into her scalp, he looks down at his and Korra's feet, the tiles, the foamy water spiraling down, reluctant to meet his eyes. Only once he's rinsed her clean, and done the same with himself, does he shut the water off. ]
mortemscintilla: ∅ But if you make a move I won't think twice. (Hei - Emo)

[personal profile] mortemscintilla 2013-11-23 05:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ Frigid? Please. It's bracingly cold, if anything. Letting go of Korra's shoulders, Hei grabs the only towel on the rail, and begins to dry first himself off, then her. Her hair first, taking his time with it, and then her body, raising her arms to dry armpits, turning her to get at her back. At her question, he falters -- if only for a moment. It's kneejerk, the resentment that flares whenever she asks him that. As if he's become some hybrid between a bleeding heart and a ticking grenade; something that needs to be handled carefully. Has the City completely wrecked him? Has he become so transparent, so superficial, so obvious and pathetic that anyone can read him like this? ]

[ He shakes it off. Reminds himself that Korra can't help but ask. Especially in light of everything that's happened. Towelling her hair into a thick moist nest, he wraps the towel around her. His expression is unreadable, voice echoing around the glass walls, muted over the tiles. It's hard to tell whether Hei sounds offhand or empty or if it's just the bathroom's acoustics. ]


Everything's fine. [ The trick is keeping it that way. Keeping a lid on that jerry-rigged death trap he calls a brain -- before the doors slam open and chaos and shrapnel goes zinging everywhere. There's a moment's pause, a slow breath, before he leans in and tips a kiss to Korra's nose. ] Come on. We both could use some sleep.

[ Or at least a cat-nap -- before he heads Topside to check on Pai. ]
Edited 2013-11-23 05:40 (UTC)
mortemscintilla: ♥ Pants tighter than plastic, honey (Li - Sleeepy Eyessss)

[personal profile] mortemscintilla 2013-11-23 06:07 am (UTC)(link)
[ Hei watches curiously as she pads over to the futon; cataloguing the soreness in every step. Reaching out, he settles a cool palm on the back of her neck, giving it a gentle squeeze. It's a multi-coded gesture: You okay? and Sorry, both layered within. Slipping into the cool sheets, he feels the world being gently powdered into tiny jagged particles, most of which get stuck behind his eyes. He's sleepier than he realized. Gathering Korra close, he lets her scooch in beside him, her one leg caught between his two, her cheek on his chest. It feels strange -- too intimate, too unnaturally sweet. The familiar claustrophobia is there, creeping at the fringes of his consciousness. But he forces it aside. Wonders, in an idle sort of way, if the selfish, feral part of him will ever grow accustomed to languorous cuddles, gentle kisses, drowsy whispers in the dark. ]

[ Probably not. But, for Korra, he can pretend. An appeasement, a concession, and a silent physical Thank You. Eyes slipping half-shut, he exhales, his breath tickling through her hair. ]


Didn't mean to get so ... [ Rough? Worked up? He isn't sure. Not sure, either, if he really means it. But it seems important to at least say something. ]
mortemscintilla: ∅  If I say I don't need anyone (Hei - Thinking Thinky Things)

[personal profile] mortemscintilla 2013-11-23 06:36 am (UTC)(link)
[ Hei wants to tell her, That's no reason to encourage me. Instead he exhales a huff of air, tinged with rueful amusement. ] You're a masochist. [ It's muttered under his breath, almost too low for her to hear. He tries to ignore the mental riposte: So what's that make you? Instead he combs his fingers through her hair, up and down, a languid motion. The weight of her is somehow light yet confining; an unwelcome second skin needing to be sloughed off. But he doesn't. Counting backwards from fifty, listening to Korra's quiet breaths, he banishes the suffocation. It isn't so easy for him as he makes it look, to keep it all up -- the warmth, the dollops of kindness. ]

[ What if it can never be enough for Korra? Worse -- what if it leaves her exactly the way he is. Warped and bitterly aloof. ]

[ That isn't something he can ask her. He only knows he's willing to try, as much as he can. For the most idiotically simple reason: she makes him happy. ]

[ And so he strokes her smooth back, lulling, dreamlike, listening to the changes in the air until she's drifted off to sleep. ]